"I did.I loved you awfully.I've been loving and dreaming of you.
And how do you know it all beforehand? Ah, here's the doctor.
Goodness! What will he tell us? Look at his face!"Chapter 7
IlushaTHE doctor came out of the room again, muffled in his fur coat and with his cap on his head.His face looked almost angry and disgusted, as though he were afraid of getting dirty.He cast a cursory glance round the passage, looking sternly at Alyosha and Kolya as he did so.Alyosha waved from the door to the coachman, and the carriage that had brought the doctor drove up.The captain darted out after the doctor, and, bowing apologetically, stopped him to get the last word.The poor fellow looked utterly crushed; there was a scared look in his eyes.
"Your Excellency, your Excellency...is it possible?" he began, but could not go on and clasped his hands in despair.Yet he still gazed imploringly at the doctor, as though a word from him might still change the poor boy's fate.
"I can't help it, I am not God!" the doctor answered offhand, though with the customary impressiveness.
"Doctor...your Excellency...and will it be soon, soon?""You must be prepared for anything," said the doctor in emphatic and incisive tones, and dropping his eyes, he was about to step out to the coach.
"Your Excellency, for Christ's sake!" the terror-stricken captain stopped him again."Your Excellency! But can nothing, absolutely nothing save him now?""It's not in my hands now," said the doctor impatiently, "but h'm!..." he stopped suddenly."If you could, for instance...send...
your patient...at once, without delay" (the words "at once, without delay," the doctor uttered with an almost wrathful sternness that made the captain start) "to Syracuse, the change to the new be-ne-ficial "To Syracuse!" cried the captain, unable to grasp what was said.
"Syracuse is in Sicily," Kolya jerked out suddenly in explanation.
The doctor looked at him.
"Sicily! Your Excellency," faltered the captain, "but you've seen"- he spread out his hands, indicating his surroundings- "mamma and my family?""N-no, SiciIy is not the place for the family, the family should go to Caucasus in the early spring...your daughter must go to the Caucasus, and your wife...after a course of the waters in the Caucasus for her rheumatism...must be sent straight to Paris to the mental specialist Lepelletier; I could give you a note to him, and then...there might be a change-""Doctor, doctor! But you see!" The captain flung wide his hands again despairingly, indicating the bare wooden walls of the passage.
"Well, that's not my business," grinned the doctor."I have only told you the answer of medical science to your question as to possible "Don't be afraid, apothecary, my dog won't bite you," Kolya rapped out loudly, noticing the doctor's rather uneasy glance at Perezvon, who was standing in the doorway.There was a wrathful note in Kolya's voice.He used the word apothecary instead of doctor on purpose, and, as he explained afterwards, used it "to insult him.""What's that?" The doctor flung up his head, staring with surprise at Kolya."Who's this?" he addressed Alyosha, as though asking him to explain.
"It's Perezvon's master, don't worry about me," Kolya said incisively again.
"Perezvon?"* repeated the doctor, perplexed.
* i.e.a chime of bells.
"He hears the bell, but where it is he cannot tell.Good-bye, we shall meet in Syracuse.""Who's this? Who's this?" The doctor flew into a terrible rage.
"He is a schoolboy, doctor, he is a mischievous boy; take no notice of him," said Alyosha, frowning and speaking quickly."Kolya, hold your tongue!" he cried to Krassotkin."Take no notice of him, doctor," he repeated, rather impatiently.
"He wants a thrashing, a good thrashing!" The doctor stamped in a perfect fury.
