登陆注册
5382100000137

第137章 CHAPTER XXVII(5)

The world has decided how such women are to be treated; and, you may depend upon it, there is so much practical wisdom in the world, that its way of acting is right in the long-run, and that no one can fly in its face with impunity, unless, indeed, they stoop to deceit and imposition." "I take my stand with Christ against the world," said Mr. Benson solemnly, disregarding the covert allusion to himself. "What have the world's ways ended in? Can we be much worse than we are?" "Speak for yourself, if you please." "Is it not time to change some of our ways of thinking and acting? I declare before God, that if I believe in any one human truth, it is this--that to every woman who, like Ruth, has sinned should be given a chance of self-redemption--and that such a chance should be given in no supercilious or contemptuous manner, but in the spirit of the holy Christ." "Such as getting her into a friend's house under false colours." "I do not argue on Ruth's case. In that I have acknowledged my error. Ido not argue on any case. I state my firm belief, that it is God's will that we should not dare to trample any of His creatures down to the hopeless dust; that it is God's will that the women who have fallen should be numbered among those who have broken hearts to be bound up, not cast aside as lost beyond recall. If this be God's will, as a thing of God it will stand;and He will open a way." "I should have attached much more importance to all your exhortation on this point if I could have respected your conduct in other matters. As it is, when I see a man who has deluded himself into considering falsehood right, I am disinclined to take his opinion on subjects connected with morality; and I can no longer regard him as a fitting exponent of the will of God. You perhaps understand what I mean, Mr. Benson. I can no longer attend your chapel." If Mr. Benson had felt any hope of making Mr. Bradshaw's obstinate mind receive the truth, that he acknowledged and repented of his connivance at the falsehood by means of which Ruth had been received into the Bradshaw family, this last sentence prevented his making the attempt. He simply bowed and took his leave--Mr. Bradshaw attending him to the door with formal ceremony. He felt acutely the severance of the tie which Mr. Bradshaw had just announced to him. He had experienced many mortifications in his intercourse with that gentleman, but they had fallen off from his meek spirit like drops of water from a bird's plumage; and now he only remembered the acts of substantial kindness rendered (the ostentation all forgotten)--many happy hours and pleasant evenings--the children whom he had loved dearer than he thought till now--the young people about whom he had cared, and whom he had striven to lead aright. He was but a young man when Mr. Bradshaw first came to his chapel; they had grown old together; he had never recognised Mr. Bradshaw as an old familiar friend so completely as now when they were severed. It was with a heavy heart that he opened his own door. He went to his study immediately; he sat down to steady himself into his position. How long he was there--silent and alone--reviewing his life--confessing his sins--he did not know; but he heard some unusual sound in the house that disturbed him--roused him to present life. A slow, languid step came along the passage to the front door--the breathing was broken by many sighs. Ruth's hand was on the latch when Mr. Benson came out. Her face was very white, except two red spots on each cheek--her eyes were deep-sunk and hollow, but glittered with feverish lustre. "Ruth!" exclaimed he. She moved her lips, but her throat and mouth were too dry for her to speak. "Where are you going?" asked he; for she had all her walking things on, yet trembled so even as she stood, that it was evident she could not walk far without falling. She hesitated--she looked up at him, still with the same dry glittering eyes. At last she whispered (for she could only speak in a whisper), "To Helmsby--I am going to Helmsby." "Helmsby! my poor girl--may God have mercy upon you!" for he saw she hardly knew what she was saying. "Where is Helmsby?" "I don't know. In Lincolnshire, I think." "But why are you going there?" "Hush! he's asleep," said she, as Mr. Benson had unconsciously raised his voice. "Who is asleep?" asked Mr. Benson. "That poor little boy," said she, beginning to quiver and cry. "Come here!" said he authoritatively, drawing her into the study. "Sit down in that chair. I will come back directly." He went in search of his sister, but she had not returned. Then he had recourse to Sally, who was as busy as ever about her cleaning. "How long has Ruth been at home?" asked he. "Ruth! She has never been at home sin' morning. She and Leonard were to be off for the day somewhere or other with them Bradshaw girls." "Then she has had no dinner?" "Not here, any rate. I can't answer for what she may have done at other places." "And Leonard--where is he?" "How should I know? With his mother, I suppose. Leastways, that was what was fixed on. I've enough to do of my own, without routing after other folks." She went on scouring in no very good temper. Mr. Benson stood silent for a moment. "Sally," he said, "I want a cup of tea. Will you make it as soon as you can; and some dry toast too? I'll come for it in ten minutes." Struck by something in his voice, she looked up at him for the first time. "What ha' ye been doing to yourself, to look so grim and grey? Tiring yourself all to tatters, looking after some naught, I'll be bound! Well! well! Imun make ye your tea, I reckon; but I did hope as you grew older you'd ha' grown wiser." Mr. Benson made no reply, but went to look for Leonard, hoping that the child's presence might bring back to his mother the power of self-control.

同类推荐
热门推荐
  • 炮灰青莲逆袭记

    炮灰青莲逆袭记

    青玖几乎形神俱灭,剩余的一缕神魂各种穿梭于别人的人生。替别人完成各种心愿,获得灵魂之力,修补自己的神魂,直到某一天,她才恍然,原来她就是别人眼中的炮灰,好吧!炮灰她也认了,她只想悄咪咪地活着而已。
  • 阿毗昙心论

    阿毗昙心论

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • 大楚国公爷

    大楚国公爷

    这一年,大争之世这一年,大楚称霸中原,万国来朝这一年,少年打马自西而来......
  • 末世之阴阳法师

    末世之阴阳法师

    秦逍本是一个在工地上打工的屌丝大学生,不料天降巨塔,晕了过去,等再次苏醒时,末世却来临了,没关系,咱有神器在手,怕个毛阿!丧尸?自己过来把灵晶抠出来!哦,好像丧尸听不懂还是自己的话。算了,还是自己来把!人类?把粮食留下就滚蛋吧!什么?不给,那就和粮食一起留下来把!你喜欢女的?我他妈还喜欢男的吗?看屌丝如何逆天成为主角。
  • 樗隠集

    樗隠集

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • 邓稼先传(共和国科学拓荒者传记系列)

    邓稼先传(共和国科学拓荒者传记系列)

    在家人的眼里,他,一个忠厚朴实却又聪明绝顶之人,毅然决然地参与了我国核研究工作;他,一个默默无闻却又是绝佳的科研领军之人,戈壁的风沙吹散了他的姓与名;他是党最忠心的儿子,他是中华民族的骄傲。国难当前,方显英雄本色!为了一个坚定的信念,他面对重重困难,无所畏惧,勇往直前。站在选择面前,他毫不犹豫,用他的话说:“我的生命就献给未来的工作了。做好了这件事,我这一生就过得很有意义,就是为它死了也值得。”
  • 超凡尊者

    超凡尊者

    这是人类新的纪元,是科技正盛的时代,但与其这么说,不如说这是强者的时代…因为不管是地球还是天外天,唯有强者才是真真的主宰
  • 玲珑骨

    玲珑骨

    他,他是明月出天山,清光满,原在山之巅。她,她是池中火红莲,波光闪,风露自缠绵。她,她是白梅雪中寒,容光冷,唯有暗香传。她与她,一个是明灯锦幄姗姗骨,一个是细马春山剪剪眸;一个是披发流泉的林下风,一个是高贵优雅的闺中秀;一个小妖女,一个真仙子;一个情多处热似火,一个心动时柔似水……——面对这样两个女子,他,又将为谁心动,为谁流连?正是:谁人露滴奇葩,谁人风动梅花;谁人灿如烟霞,谁人江水隔纱;谁人伤在天涯,谁人一生堪嗟!
  • The Pit

    The Pit

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • 圣经的故事

    圣经的故事

    《圣经》是人类历史上一部独一无二的书。它由不同时代的人用不同的语言写成,却极其贯通;它遭到无数的怀疑甚至诋毁,但最终它作为圣经经典的位置却丝毫没有动摇;它不是单纯的文学书、哲学书或历史书,但它是很多文学作品的源泉,哲学家不断地引用和讨论,它对犹太古史的详尽记载也远远超过其他民族的古史书。《圣经》是人类的伟大遗产。