A whole day's walk yesterday with no plan; just a long ramble of hour after hour, entirely enjoyable.It ended at Topsham, where Isat on the little churchyard terrace, and watched the evening tide come up the broad estuary.I have a great liking for Topsham, and that churchyard, overlooking what is not quite sea, yet more than river, is one of the most restful spots I know.Of course the association with old Chaucer, who speaks of Topsham sailors, helps my mood.I came home very tired; but I am not yet decrepit, and for that I must be thankful.
The unspeakable blessedness of having a HOME! Much as my imagination has dwelt upon it for thirty years, I never knew how deep and exquisite a joy could lie in the assurance that one is ATHOME for ever.Again and again I come back upon this thought;nothing but Death can oust me from my abiding place.And Death Iwould fain learn to regard as a friend, who will but intensify the peace I now relish.
When one is at home, how one's affections grow about everything in the neighbourhood! I always thought with fondness of this corner of Devon, but what was that compared with the love which now strengthens in me day by day! Beginning with my house, every stick and stone of it is dear to me as my heart's blood; I find myself laying an affectionate hand on the door-post, giving a pat, as I go by, to the garden gate.Every tree and shrub in the garden is my beloved friend; I touch them, when need is, very tenderly, as though carelessness might pain, or roughness injure them.If I pull up a weed in the walk, I look at it with a certain sadness before throwing it away; it belongs to my home.
And all the country round about.These villages, how delightful are their names to my ear! I find myself reading with interest all the local news in the Exeter paper.Not that I care about the people;with barely one or two exceptions, the people are nothing to me, and the less I see of them the better I am pleased.But the PLACES grow ever more dear to me.I like to know of anything that has happened at Heavitree, or Brampford Speke, or Newton St.Cyres.I begin to pride myself on knowing every road and lane, every bridle path and foot-way for miles about.I like to learn the names of farms and of fields.And all this because here is my abiding place, because I am home for ever.
It seems to me that the very clouds that pass above my house are more interesting and beautiful than clouds elsewhere.
And to think that at one time I called myself a socialist, communist, anything you like of the revolutionary kind! Not for long, to be sure, and I suspect that there was always something in me that scoffed when my lips uttered such things.Why, no man living has a more profound sense of property than I; no man ever lived, who was, in every fibre, more vehemently an individualist.
