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第175章

I left Mr.Blake, to go my rounds among my patients; feeling the better and the happier even for the short interview that I had had with him.

What is the secret of the attraction that there is for me in this man?

Does it only mean that I feel the contrast between the frankly kind manner in which he has allowed me to become acquainted with him, and the merciless dislike and distrust with which I am met by other people? Or is there really something in him which answers to the yearning that I have for a little human sympathy -- the yearning, which has survived the solitude and persecution of many years; which seems to grow keener and keener, as the time comes nearer and nearer when I shall endure and feel no more? How useless to ask these questions! Mr.Blake has given me a new interest in life.Let that be enough, without seeking to know what the new interest is.

June 17th.-- Before breakfast, this morning, Mr.Candy informed me that he was going away for a fortnight, on a visit to a friend in the south of England.He gave me as many special directions, poor fellow, about the patients, as if he still had the large practice which he possessed before he was taken ill.The practice is worth little enough now! Other doctors have superseded him ; and nobody who can help it will employ me.

It is perhaps fortunate that he is to be away just at this time.He would have been mortified if I had not informed him of the experiment which I am going to try with Mr.Blake.And I hardly know what undesirable results might not have happened, if I had taken him into my confidence.Better as it is.Unquestionably, better as it is.

The post brought me Miss Verinder's answer, after Mr.Candy had left the house.

A charming letter! It gives me the highest opinion of her.There is no attempt to conceal the interest that she feels in our proceedings.She tells me, in the prettiest manner, that my letter has satisfied her of Mr.Blake's innocence, without the slightest need (so far as she is concerned)of putting my assertion to the proof.She even upbraids herself -- most undeservedly, poor thing! -- for not having divined at the time what the true solution of the mystery might really be.The motive underlying all this proceeds evidently from something more than a generous eagerness to make atonement for a wrong which she has innocently inflicted on another person.It is plain that she has loved him, throughout the estrangement between them.In more than one place the rapture of discovering that he has deserved to be loved, breaks its way innocently through the stoutest formalities of pen and ink, and even defies the stronger restraint still of writing to a stranger.Is it possible (I ask myself, in reading this delightful letter) that I, of all men in the world, am chosen to be the means of bringing these two young people together again? My own happiness has been trampled underfoot; my own love has been torn from me.Shall Ilive to see a happiness of others, which is of my making -- a love renewed, which is of my bringing back? Oh merciful Death, let me see it before your arms enfold me, before your voice whispers to me, `Rest at last!'

There are two requests contained in the letter.One of them prevents me from showing it to Mr.Franklin Blake.I am authorized to tell him that Miss Verinder willingly consents to place her house at our disposal; and, that said, I am desired to add no more.

So far, it is easy to comply with her wishes.But the second request embarrasses me seriously.

Not content with having written to Mr.Betteredge, instructing him to carry out whatever directions I may have to give, Miss Verinder asks leave to assist me, by personally superintending the restoration of her own sitting-room.

She only waits a word of reply from me to make the journey to Yorkshire, and to be present as one of the witnesses on the night when the opium is tried for the second time.

Here, again, there is a motive under the surface; and, here again, Ifancy that I can find it out.

What she has forbidden me to tell Mr.Franklin Blake, she is (as I interpret it) eager to tell him with her own lips, before he is put to the test which is to vindicate his character in the eyes of other people.Iunderstand and admire this generous anxiety to acquit him, without waiting until his innocence may, or may not, be proved.It is the atonement that she is longing to make, poor girl, after having innocently and inevitably wronged him.But the thing cannot be done.I have no sort of doubt that the agitation which a meeting between them would produce on both sides -- reviving dormant feelings, appealing to old memories, awakening new hopes -- would, in their effect on the mind of Mr.Blake, be almost certainly fatal to the success of our experiment.It is hard enough, as things are, to reproduce in him the conditions as they existed, or nearly as they existed, last year.With new interests and new emotions to agitate him, the attempt would be simply useless.

And yet, knowing this, I cannot find it in my heart to disappoint her.

I must try if I can discover some new arrangement, before post-time, which will allow me to say Yes to Miss Verinder, without damage to the service which I have bound myself to render to Mr.Franklin Blake.

Two o'clock.-- I have just returned from my round of medical visits;having begun, of course, by calling at the hotel.

Mr.Blake's report of the night is the same as before.He has had some intervals of broken sleep, and no more.But he feels it less to-day, having slept after yesterday's dinner.This after-dinner sleep is the result, no doubt, of the ride which I advised him to take.I fear I shall have to curtail his restorative exercise in the fresh air.He must not be too well; he must not be too ill.It is a case (as a sailor would say) of very fine steering.

He has not heard yet from Mr.Bruff.I found him eager to know if Ihad received any answer from Miss Verinder.

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