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第198章

All the night through, till the dawn of the gray morning, Falconer watched the sleeping man, all but certain that he was indeed his father.Eternities of thought passed through his mind as he watched--this time by the couch, as he hoped, of a new birth.He was about to see what could be done by one man, strengthened by all the aids that love and devotion could give, for the redemption of his fellow.As through the darkness of the night and a sluggish fog to aid it, the light of a pure heaven made its slow irresistible way, his hope grew that athwart the fog of an evil life, the darkness that might be felt, the light of the Spirit of God would yet penetrate the heart of the sinner, and shake the wickedness out of it.Deeper and yet deeper grew his compassion and his sympathy, in prospect of the tortures the man must go through, before the will that he had sunk into a deeper sleep than any into which opium could sink his bodily being, would shake off its deathly lethargy, and arise, torn with struggling pain, to behold the light of a new spiritual morning.All that he could do he was prepared to do, regardless of entreaty, regardless of torture, anger, and hate, with the inexorable justice of love, the law that will not, must not, dares not yield--strong with an awful tenderness, a wisdom that cannot be turned aside, to redeem the lost soul of his father.And he strengthened his heart for the conflict by saying that if he would do thus for his father, what would not God do for his child?

Had He not proved already, if there was any truth in the grand story of the world's redemption through that obedience unto the death, that his devotion was entire, and would leave nothing undone that could be done to lift this sheep out of the pit into whose darkness and filth he had fallen out of the sweet Sabbath of the universe?

He removed all his clothes, searched the pockets, found in them one poor shilling and a few coppers, a black cutty pipe, a box of snuff, a screw of pigtail, a knife with a buckhorn handle and one broken blade, and a pawn-ticket for a keyed flute, on the proceeds of which he was now sleeping--a sleep how dearly purchased, when he might have had it free, as the gift of God's gentle darkness! Then he destroyed the garments, committing them to the fire as the hoped farewell to the state of which they were the symbols and signs.

He found himself perplexed, however, by the absence of some of the usual symptoms of the habit of opium, and concluded that his poor father was in the habit of using stimulants as well as narcotics, and that the action of the one interfered with the action of the other.

He called his housekeeper.She did not know whom her master supposed his guest to be, and regarded him only as one of the many objects of his kindness.He told her to get some tea ready, as the patient would most likely wake with a headache.He instructed her to wait upon him as a matter of course, and explain nothing.He had resolved to pass for the doctor, as indeed he was; and he told her that if he should be at all troublesome, he would be with her at once.She must keep the room dark.He would have his own breakfast now; and if the patient remained quiet, would sleep on the sofa.

He woke murmuring, and evidently suffered from headache and nausea.

Mrs.Ashton took him some tea.He refused it with an oath--more of discomfort than of ill-nature--and was too unwell to show any curiosity about the person who had offered it.Probably he was accustomed to so many changes of abode, and to so many bewilderments of the brain, that he did not care to inquire where he was or who waited upon him.But happily for the heart's desire of Falconer, the debauchery of his father had at length reached one of many crises.He had caught cold before De Fleuri and his comrades found him.He was now ill--feverish and oppressed.Through the whole of the following week they nursed and waited upon him without his asking a single question as to where he was or who they were; during all which time Falconer saw no one but De Fleuri and the many poor fellows who called to inquire after him and the result of their supposed success.He never left the house, but either watched by the bedside, or waited in the next room.Often would the patient get out of bed, driven by the longing for drink or for opium, gnawing him through all the hallucinations of delirium; but he was weak, and therefore manageable.If in any lucid moments he thought where he was, he no doubt supposed that he was in a hospital, and probably had sense enough to understand that it was of no use to attempt to get his own way there.He was soon much worn, and his limbs trembled greatly.It was absolutely necessary to give him stimulants, or he would have died, but Robert reduced them gradually as he recovered strength.

But there was an infinite work to be done beyond even curing him of his evil habits.To keep him from strong drink and opium, even till the craving after them was gone, would be but the capturing of the merest outwork of the enemy's castle.He must be made such that, even if the longing should return with tenfold force, and all the means for its gratification should lie within the reach of his outstretched hand, he would not touch them.God only was able to do that for him.He would do all that he knew how to do, and God would not fail of his part.For this he had raised him up; to this he had called him; for this work he had educated him, made him a physician, given him money, time, the love and aid of his fellows, and, beyond all, a rich energy of hope and faith in his heart, emboldening him to attempt whatever his hand found to do.

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