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第36章

It was the greeting of the general's daughter.I had heard nothing--no rustle,no footsteps.I had felt only a moment before a sort of premonition of evil;I had the sense of an inauspicious presence--just that much warning and no more;and then came the sound of the voice and the jar as of a terrible fall from a great height--a fall,let us say,from the highest of the clouds floating in gentle procession over the fields in the faint westerly air of that July afternoon.I picked myself up quickly,of course;in other words,I jumped up from my chair stunned and dazed,every nerve quivering with the pain of being uprooted out of one world and flung down into another--perfectly civil.

"Oh!How do you do?Won't you sit down?"

That's what I said.This horrible but,I assure you,perfectly true reminiscence tells you more than a whole volume of confessions a la Jean Jacques Rousseau would do.Observe!I didn't howl at her,or start up setting furniture,or throw myself on the floor and kick,or allow myself to hint in any other way at the appalling magnitude of the disaster.The whole world of Costaguana (the country,you may remember,of my seaboard tale),men,women,headlands,houses,mountains,town,campo(there was not a single brick,stone,or grain of sand of its soil I had not placed in position with my own hands);all the history,geography,politics,finance;the wealth of Charles Gould's silver-mine,and the splendour of the magnificent Capataz de Cargadores,whose name,cried out in the night (Dr.Monygham heard it pass over his head--in Linda Viola's voice),dominated even after death the dark gulf containing his conquests of treasure and love--all that had come down crashing about my ears.

I felt I could never pick up the pieces--and in that very moment I was saying,"Won't you sit down?"

The sea is strong medicine.Behold what the quarter-deck training even in a merchant ship will do!This episode should give you a new view of the English and Scots seamen (a much-caricatured folk)who had the last say in the formation of my character.One is nothing if not modest,but in this disaster I think I have done some honour to their simple teaching."Won't you sit down?"Very fair;very fair,indeed.She sat down.Her amused glance strayed all over the room.

There were pages of MS.on the table and under the table,a batch of typed copy on a chair,single leaves had fluttered away into distant corners;there were there living pages,pages scored and wounded,dead pages that would be burned at the end of the day--the litter of a cruel battle-field,of a long,long,and desperate fray.Long!I suppose I went to bed sometimes,and got up the same number of times.Yes,I suppose I slept,and ate the food put before me,and talked connectedly to my household on suitable occasions.But I had never been aware of the even flow of daily life,made easy and noiseless for me by a silent,watchful,tireless affection.Indeed,it seemed to me that I had been sitting at that table surrounded by the litter of a desperate fray for days and nights on end.It seemed so,because of the intense weariness of which that interruption had made me aware--the awful disenchantment of a mind realizing suddenly the futility of an enormous task,joined to a bodily fatigue such as no ordinary amount of fairly heavy physical labour could ever account for.I have carried bags of wheat on my back,bent almost double under a ship's deck-beams,from six in the morning till six in the evening (with an hour and a half off for meals),so I ought to know.

And I love letters.I am jealous of their honour and concerned for the dignity and comeliness of their service.I was,most likely,the only writer that neat lady had ever caught in the exercise of his craft,and it distressed me not to be able to remember when it was that I dressed myself last,and how.No doubt that would be all right in essentials.The fortune of the house included a pair of gray-blue watchful eyes that would see to that.But I felt,somehow,as grimy as a Costaguana lepero after a day's fighting in the streets,rumpled all over and dishevelled down to my very heels.And I am afraid I blinked stupidly.All this was bad for the honour of letters and the dignity of their service.Seen indistinctly through the dust of my collapsed universe,the good lady glanced about the room with a slightly amused serenity.And she was smiling.What on earth was she smiling at?She remarked casually:

"I am afraid I interrupted you."

"Not at all."

She accepted the denial in perfect good faith.And it was strictly true.Interrupted--indeed!She had robbed me of at least twenty lives,each infinitely more poignant and real than her own,because informed with passion,possessed of convictions,involved in great affairs created out of my own substance for an anxiously meditated end.

She remained silent for a while,then said,with a last glance all round at the litter of the fray:

"And you sit like this here writing your--your ."

"I--what?Oh,yes!I sit here all day."

"It must be perfectly delightful."

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