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第4章 CHAPTER II(2)

"My son," he said at length, "thou art in the wrong school; nursery, was it the maid said? A shrewd lass and welcome to the hen. Thou art a limner at heart - Brother Bernard tells of thy wondrous skill with the brush - and to be limner thou must learn to hunger and to love as the maid said. Ay, boy, and to be monk too, though alack, men gainsay it."

"Father," said Hilarius, waxing bold from excessive need, "did'st thou ever love as the maid meant?"

"Ay, boy - thy mother."

There was a long silence. Then the boy said timidly:-"The maid said she might be light of love; 'tis a beautiful thought."

The Prior started, and looked at him curiously:-"What didst thou tell the maid?"

"That I never knew her, but that my father was a gentle knight who died ere I saw him; and then the maid said perchance my mother was light of love."

"Boy," said the Prior gravely, "'tis a weary tale, and sad of telling. Thy mother was wondrous fair without, but she reckoned love lightly, nay, knew it not for the holy thing it is, but thought only of bodily lusts. Pray for her soul" - his voice grew stern - "as for one of those upon whom God, in His great pity, may have mercy. Thus have I prayed these many years."

Hilarius looked at him in wide-eyed horror:-"She was evil, wicked, my mother?"

"Ay - a light woman, that was what the maid meant."

Then great darkness fell upon the soul of Hilarius, and he clasped the Prior's knees weeping and praying like a little child.

"And so, my son," said the Prior, "for a time thou shalt go out into the world, to strive and fail, hunger and love; only have a care that thou art chaste in heart and life; for it is the pure shall see God, and seeing love Him. Leave me now that. I may set in order thy going; and send the Chamberlain hither to me."

That night Hilarius knelt through the long hours at the great Rood, and then at St Mary Maudlin's altar he did penance for his dead mother's sin.

A week later he left the Monastery as a bird leaves its nest, nay, is pushed out by the far-seeing parent bird, full of vague terrors of the great world without. He had a purse for his immediate needs; a letter to a great knight, Sir John Maltravers, who would be his patron; and another to the Prior's good friend, the Abbat of St Alban's. The Convent bade him a sad farewell, for they loved this gentle lad who had been with them from a little child; and Brother Richard strained his filmy eyes to look his last at the young face he would never see again.

The Prior gave him the Communion; and later walked beside him to the gates. Then as Hilarius knelt he blessed him; and the boy, overmastered by nameless fear, sprang up and prayed that he might stay and learn some other way, however hard. The Prior shook his head.

"Nay, my son, so it must be; else how shall I answer to the Master for this most precious lamb of my flock? Come back to us - an thou can'st - let no fear deter thee; only take heed, when thine eyes are opened and the great gifts of hunger and love are vouchsafed thee, to keep still the faithful heart of a little child."

Then he bade him go; and Hilarius, for the pull of his heart- strings, must needs run hot-foot down the broad forest road and along the highway, without daring to look back, and so out into the wide, wide world.

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