登陆注册
5297800000089

第89章 "Hope dies Hard."(1)

When alone with his friend after supper,Stanton broke out,"Since Ida can't exist without the sight of that wretch,Sibley,I wish she would follow him to New York.If she dotes on such scum,they had better be married,as far as such people can be,and so relieve her relatives of an incubus that is well-nigh intolerable.""Are you absolutely sure that she does dote on Sibley,and that he is the cause of her evident trouble?"asked Van Berg,with a perplexed frown lowering on his brow.

"I'm not sure of anything concerning her save that she was born to make trouble.I know she was with him all the time he was here,and since he was metaphorically kicked off the premises she has sulked in her room.I suppose,of course,that she is mortified,and hates to meet people.Indeed,from a remark she made,some one must have snubbed her vigorously to-day;but her course makes everything a hundredfold worse.I am besmirched because of my relationship.I can see this in the bearing of more than one,and even Miss Burton,who could not be consciously unkind to any one,keeps me at a distance by barriers,which,although seemingly viewless,are so real I cannot pass them."Van Berg surmised that the evasive tact which Miss Burton exercised towards his friend was not caused by his relationship to Ida,and yet was compelled to admit that her frank and friendly bearing towards himself was scarcely less dispiriting.Her manner,as a rule,was so plainly that of a friend only,that were it not for occasional and furtive glances which he intercepted,he would deem his prospects little better than Stanton's,in spite of all that had passed between them.Even in these stolen,questioning,longing glances,there was an element that trouble and perplexed him,and the strange thought crossed his mind that when she looked most intently she did not see Harold Van Berg,but an intervening vision.

Her mystery,however,rendered her only the more attractive,and she seemed like a good angel that had come from an unknown world concerning which she could not speak,and perhaps he could not understand.

Her society was like a delicate wine,delightfully exhilarating while enjoyed,but whose effect is transient.He was provoked at himself to find how well he endured her absence,and how content he was with the genuine friendship she was evidently forming for him.Sometimes he even longed for more of the absorbing passion which he saw had wholly mastered Stanton;but tried to satisfy himself by reasoning that his love was in accordance with his nature,which was calm and constant,rather than impulsive and passionate.

"All the higher faculties of my soul are her allies,"he thought,complacently."I admire honor,and even reverence her.She could walk through life as my companion,my equal,and in many respects,my superior;"and so with all the delicate and unobtrusive tact of which he was the master he proposed to press his suit.

Since Jennie Burton had plainly intimated that,like King Lear,she had lost her woman's kingdom--her heart--and so was not able to reward such suit and service,how came it she kept poor Stanton at a distance,but welcomed the society of Van Berg?Possibly her intuition recognized the fact that in the case of Stanton she had touched the heart,but had won the mind of the artist.The first seemed disposed to give all and to demand all.Stanton's all did not count for very much thus far in her estimation.She had recognized the character he had brought to the Lake House--that of a pleasure-loving man of the world--and she was far too modest to suppose that she could work any material change in this character.

Self-indulgent by nature,she believed that he had proposed to enjoy a summer flirtation with one whom he would easily forget in the autumn,and,while this impression lasted,she punished him by requiring that he should be the chivalric attendant of every forlorn female in the house.When she believed,however,that such heart as he possessed was truly interested,she became as unapproachable as the afternoon horizon,whose rich glow is seemingly near,but can never be reached.While she recognized the genuineness of his passion,she did not,as before intimated,regard it as a very serious affair.

"Good dinners and fairer faces than mine will comfort him before Christmas,"she thought.

Few know themselves--their own capabilities of joy,suffering,or achievement.As with Ida,Stanton was at a loss to understand the changes in his own character.It was quite possible,therefore,that Miss Burton should misunderstand him.Indeed he had,as yet,but little place in her sad and preoccupied thoughts.

For some reason,however,Van Berg's society had for her a peculiar fascination that she could not resist.She scarcely knew whether she derived from it more of pleasure than of pain.She often asked herself this question:

"Which were better for a traveller in the desert--to see a mirage,or the sands only in all their barren reality?"Her judgment said,the latter;but when the elusive mirage appeared,she looked often with a longing wistfulness that might well suggest a pilgrim that was athirst and famishing.

In spite of her quickness,Van Berg occasionally caught something of this expression,and while he drew encouragement from it,he was too free from vanity and too acute an observer to conclude that all would result as he hoped.The unwelcome thought would come that he was only the occasion and not the cause,of these furtive glances.Was her heart already wedded to a memory,and was she interested in him chiefly because for some reason he gave vividness and reality to that memory?If this were true,what more had he to hope for than Stanton?If this were true,was he not in a certain sense pursuing a shadow?Woud success be success?Would he wish to clasp,as his wife,a woman whose heart had been buried in a sepulchre from which the stone might never be rolled away?

同类推荐
  • 晁氏客语

    晁氏客语

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • The Life of the Fly

    The Life of the Fly

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • 西游记传

    西游记传

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • 佛说阿阇世王经

    佛说阿阇世王经

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • 木天禁语

    木天禁语

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
热门推荐
  • 初恋的天堂城堡

    初恋的天堂城堡

    你知道路彼雅学院的高塔里关着一只“蓝精灵”吗?圣诞夜里,十六岁的季奈拉遇见了“蓝精灵”——墨夜枢,从此结下了不解之缘,转学来到路彼雅学院后,季奈拉意外地发现了被关在高塔里的墨夜枢,从此,她叫他“蓝兔”。因为一个误会,季奈拉惹怒了学校董事之一的儿子——柏井优,意料之外,柏井优与季奈拉的“对战”屡战屡败,来来回回的接触之中,柏井优渐渐喜欢上了这个天真活泼的女孩。面对云樱娴的刁难,季奈拉从容应对,却在一次意外的落水后,与她成了好姐妹,即使她们中间隔着一个柏井优……然而,就在这个时候,季奈拉出入高塔的事情被理事长发现,即将被赶出学校,她与墨夜枢的爱恋会走向何方呢?
  • 后妃难训

    后妃难训

    他怀抱着妖艳女子,手执酒杯从她的身上扫过,嘴角弯起一抹残酷的弧度,朝对面的男子说道:“作为你将如此美人送给朕的回礼,今晚,朕就会将朕的皇后送到你的寝宫。”她神色漠然,甚至没有抬头看他一眼,就如同他口中的皇后与她没有半点关系。****她说:“我为你练出一支铁军,助你横扫天下,作为交换,你要还我自由。”“好。”没有任何犹豫,他一口答应了她的提议,轻执起她的下巴,笑容邪魅,说道,“但是今天晚上,由你侍寝。”她脸上的神色淡漠如冰,亦没有任何的犹豫,“可以。”****只是,她没有想到,作为一国之君,理应君无戏言,可是他却失信了,而且,失信的皇帝,不止他一个…楚轻,驻越南特种兵第一军团长,被敌人逼入处处隐藏危机的沼泽之中,为救队员掉进泥潭,等她清醒,却发现周围的一切,全然陌生,甚至还被错认为皇后宁雪倩而带进皇宫。在这异世,她步步惊心,却淡然处之,只为求得自由之身,但终究不得如愿,面对那似乎无尽的囚笼,那双冷眸之中终于现出了决绝和狂傲,那耀世的光华,无人可挡,亦无人敢挡。~嘿嘿,宝贝又开新文了,亲们多多支持哦,票票啊收藏啊什么的,宝贝最喜欢了!O(∩_∩)O~穿越文《错点王妃》:
  • 藏獒不是狗

    藏獒不是狗

    我们在《藏獒不是狗》中可以看到杨志军精神探索的回归。藏獒的灾难折射人心的黑暗,被罪恶颠覆的人性正在面临不甘丧尽的挣扎,真的是我们有权犯罪无权做人?谁在决定“人”的生死?《藏獒不是狗》用流畅的故事、诗意的语言告诉我们:怵目惊心的藏獒悲剧后面,更有匪夷所思的“人”的堕落,而我们又意外地看到了人性之光的闪耀、心灵之力的存在、信仰救赎的可能。藏獒从青藏高原走来。
  • 贤妻已下线

    贤妻已下线

    在所有人眼里,我该是幸福的、至于不幸,都是作出来的
  • 为政善报事类

    为政善报事类

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • 一生的忠告

    一生的忠告

    查斯特菲尔德留给世人最宝贵的财富,除了他非凡的外交才干,还有他集几十年心血写给其子菲利普?斯坦霍普的家书。菲利普未满6岁,查斯特菲尔德便开始给他写信,向他传授做人的基本准则、进入上流社会的礼仪风范,以及成就事业的基本学识和技巧。在父亲的谆谆教诲之下,菲利普也成为一名杰出的外交家。
  • 高武巨擘

    高武巨擘

    热血和诡秘互搏,东方武者与西方异能者鏖战,谁可跨越荆棘,踏足巅峰?超凡的传说不曾湮灭,应信史诗与神话从未远离......
  • 太上六壬明鉴符阴经

    太上六壬明鉴符阴经

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • 得无垢女经

    得无垢女经

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • 广播电视名家访谈

    广播电视名家访谈

    在新中国成立60周年、中国传媒大学校庆55周年之际,《现代传播——中国传媒大学学报》也迎来了30周年刊庆。《现代传播——中国传媒大学学报》创刊于1979年,迄今走过了整整30年的历程。作为国内创刊最早的广播电视学术期刊之一,30年来我们向广大读者奉献了160多期刊物,5000余篇论文,发行总量50万余册,为中国广播电视学术与事业的发展做出了自己的贡献。