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第342章 MADAME D'ARBLAY(12)

And now began a slavery of five years, of five years taken from the best part of life, and wasted in menial drudgery or in recreations duller than even menial drudgery, under galling restraints and amidst unfriendly or uninteresting companions.The history of an ordinary day was this.Miss Burney had to rise and dress herself early, that she might be ready to answer the royal bell, which rang at half after seven.Till about eight she attended in the Queen's dressing-room, and had the honour of lacing her august mistress's stays, and of putting on the hoop, gown, and neckhandkerchief.The morning was chiefly spent in rummaging drawers and laying fine clothes in their proper places.

Then the Queen was to be powdered and dressed for the day.Twice a week her Majesty's hair was curled and craped; and this operation appears to have added a full hour to the business of the toilette.It was generally three before Miss Burney was at liberty.Then she had two hours at her own disposal.To these hours we owe great part of her Diary.At five she had to attend her colleague, Madame Schwellenberg, a hateful old toadeater, as illiterate as a chambermaid, as proud as a whole German Chapter, rude, peevish, unable to bear solitude, unable to conduct herself with common decency in society.With this delightful associate, Frances Burney had to dine, and pass the evening.The pair generally remained together from five to eleven, and often had no other company the whole time, except during the hour from eight to nine, when the equerries came to tea.If poor Frances attempted to escape to her own apartment, and to forget her wretchedness over a book, the execrable old woman railed and stormed, and complained that she was neglected.

Yet, when Frances stayed, she was constantly assailed with insolent reproaches.Literary fame was, in the eyes of the German crone, a blemish, a proof that the person who enjoyed it was meanly born, and out of the pale of good society.All her scanty stock of broken English was employed to express the contempt with which she regarded the author of Evelina and Cecilia.Frances detested cards, and indeed knew nothing about them; but she soon found that the least miserable way of passing an evening with Madame Schwellenberg was at the card-table, and consented, with patient sadness, to give hours, which might have called forth the laughter and the tears of many generations, to the king of clubs and the knave of spades.Between eleven and twelve the bell rang again.Miss Burney had to pass twenty minutes or half an hour in undressing the Queen, and was then at liberty to retire, and to dream that she was chatting with her brother by the quiet hearth in Saint Martin's Street, that she was the centre of an admiring assemblage at Mrs.Crewe's, that Burke was calling her the first woman of the age, or that Dilly was giving her a cheque for two thousand guineas.

Men, we must suppose, are less patient than women; for we are utterly at a loss to conceive how any human being could endure such a life, while there remained a vacant garret in Grub Street, a crossing in want of a sweeper, a parish workhouse, or a parish vault.And it was for such a life that Frances Burney had given up liberty and peace, a happy fireside, attached friends, a wide and splendid circle of acquaintance, intellectual pursuits in which she was qualified to excel, and the sure hope of what to her would have been affluence.

There is nothing new under the sun.The last great master of Attic eloquence and Attic wit has left us a forcible and touching description of the misery of a man of letters, who, lured by hopes similar to those of Frances, had entered the service of one of the magnates of Rome."Unhappy that I am," cries the victim of his own childish ambition: "would nothing content me but that Imust leave mine old pursuits and mine old companions, and the life which was without care, and the sleep which had no limit save mine own pleasure, and the walks which I was free to take where I listed, and fling myself into the lowest pit of a dungeon like this? And, O God! for what? Was there no way by which Imight have enjoyed in freedom comforts even greater than those which I now earn by servitude? Like a lion which has been made so tame that men may lead him about by a thread, I am dragged up and down, with broken and humbled spirit, at the heels of those to whom, in mine own domain, I should have been an object of awe and wonder.And, worst of all, I feel that here I gain no credit, that here I give no pleasure.The talents and accomplishments, which charmed a far different circle, are here out of place.I am rude in the arts of palaces, and can ill bear comparison with those whose calling, from their youth up, has been to flatter and to sue.Have I, then, two lives, that, after I have wasted one in the service of others, there may yet remain to me a second, which I may live unto myself?"Now and then, indeed, events occurred which disturbed the wretched monotony of Frances Burney's life.The Court moved from Kew to Windsor, and from Windsor back to Kew.One dull colonel went out of waiting, and another dull colonel came into waiting.

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