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第7章

She would have turned and left him then,seeking the shelter of the house to hide herself,but she was too tired to move.Even speech was a labor and a weariness.

“There is nothing left,”she said at last.“Nothing left for me.Nothing to love.Nothing to fight for.You are gone and Tara is going.”

He looked at her for a long space and then,leaning,scooped up a small wad of red clay from the ground.

“Yes,there is something left,”he said,and the ghost of his old smile came back,the smile which mocked himself as well as her.“Something you love better than me,though you may not know it.You've still got Tara.”

He took her limp hand and pressed the damp clay into it and closed her fingers about it.There was no fever in his hands now,nor in hers.She looked at the red soil for a moment and it meant nothing to her.She looked at him and realized dimly that there was an integrity of spirit in him which was not to be torn apart by her passionate hands,nor by any hands.

If it killed him,he would never leave Melanie.If he burned for Scarlett until the end of his days,he would never take her and he would fight to keep her at a distance.She would never again get through that armor.The words,hospitality and loyalty and honor,meant more to him than she did.

The clay was cold in her hand and she looked at it again.

“Yes,”she said,“I've still got this.”

At first,the words meant nothing and the clay was only red clay.But unbidden came the thought of the sea of red dirt which surrounded Tara and how very dear it was and how hard she had fought to keep it—how hard she was going to have to fight if she wished to keep it hereafter.She looked at him again and wondered where the hot flood of feeling had gone.She could think but could not feel,not about him nor Tara either,for she was drained of all emotion.

“You need not go,”she said clearly.“I won't have you all starve,simply because I've thrown myself at your head.It will never happen again.”

She turned away and started back toward the house across the rough fields,twisting her hair into a knot upon her neck.Ashley watched her go and saw her square her small thin shoulders as she went.And that gesture went to his heart,more than any words she had spoken.

Chapter 32

She was still clutching the ball of red clay when she went up the front steps.She had carefully avoided the back entrance,for Mammy's sharp eyes would certainly have seen that something was greatly amiss.Scarlett did not want to see Mammy or anyone else.She did not feel that she could endure disappointment or bitterness now,only a weakness of the knees and a great emptiness of heart.She squeezed the clay so tightly it ran out from her clenched fist and she said over and over,parrot-like:“I've still got this.Yes,I've still got this.”

There was nothing else she did have,nothing but this red land,this land she had been willing to throw away like a torn handkerchief only a few minutes before.Now,it was dear to her again and she wondered dully what madness had possessed her to hold it so lightly.Had Ashley yielded,she could have gone away with him and left family and friends without a backward look but,even in her emptiness,she knew it would have torn her heart to leave these dear red hills and long washed gullies and gaunt black pines.Her thoughts would have turned back to them hungrily until the day she died.Not even Ashley could have filled the empty spaces in her heart where Tara had been uprooted.How wise Ashley was and how well he knew her!He had only to press the damp earth into her hand to bring her to her senses.

She was in the hall preparing to close the door when she heard the sound of horse's hooves and turned to look down the driveway.To have visitors at this of all times was too much.She'd hurry to her room and plead a headache.

But when the carriage came nearer,her flight was checked by her amazement.It was a new carriage,shiny with varnish,and the harness was new too,with bits of polished brass here and there.Strangers,certainly.No one she knew had the money for such a grand new turn-out as this.

She stood in the doorway watching,the cold draft blowing her skirts about her damp ankles.Then the carriage stopped in front of the house and Jonas Wilkerson alighted.Scarlett was so surprised at the sight of their former overseer driving so fine a rig and in so splendid a greatcoat she could not for a moment believe her eyes.Will had told her he looked quite prosperous since he got his new job with the Freedmen's Bureau.Made a lot of money,Will said,swindling the niggers or the government,one or tuther,or confiscating folks'cotton and swearing it was Confederate government cotton.Certainly he never came by all that money honestly in these hard times.

And here he was now,stepping out of an elegant carriage and handing down a woman dressed within an inch of her life.Scarlett saw in a glance that the dress was bright in color to the point of vulgarity but nevertheless her eyes went over the outfit hungrily.It had been so long since she had even seen stylish new clothes.Well!So hoops aren't so wide this year,she thought,scanning the red plaid gown.And,as she took in the black velvet paletot,how short jackets are!And what a cunning hat!Bonnets must be out of style,for this hat was only an absurd flat red velvet affair,perched on the top of the woman's head like a stiffened pancake.The ribbons did not tie under the chin as bonnet ribbons tied but in the back under the massive bunch of curls which fell from the rear of the hat,curls which Scarlett could not help noticing did not match the woman's hair in either color or texture.

As the woman stepped to the ground and looked toward the house,Scarlett saw there was something familiar about the rabbity face,caked with white powder.

“Why,it's Emmie Slattery!”she cried,so surprised she spoke the words aloud.

“Yes'm,it's me,”said Emmie,tossing her head with an ingratiating smile and starting toward the steps.

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