"After two days of furious delirium," resumed Rodin, "he renounced the world, and shut himself up in impenetrable solitude.The first period of his retreat was frightful; in his despair, he uttered loud yells of grief and rage, that were audible at some distance.Twice he attempted suicide, to escape from the terrible visions."
"He had visions, then?" said Hardy, with an increased agony of curiosity.
"Yes," replied Rodin, in a solemn tone, "he had fearful visions.He saw the girl, who, for his sake, had died in mortal sin, plunged in the heat of the everlasting flames of hell! On that fair face, disfigured by infernal tortures, was stamped the despairing laugh of the damned! Her teeth gnashed with pain; her arms writhed in anguish! She wept tears of blood, and, with an agonized and avenging voice, she cried to her seducer: 'Thou art the cause of my perdition--my curse, my curse be upon thee!'"
As he pronounced these last words, Rodin advanced three steps nearer to Hardy, accompanying each step with a menacing gesture.If we remember the state of weakness, trouble, and fear, in which M.Hardy was--if we remember that the Jesuit had just roused in the soul of this unfortunate man all the sensual and spiritual memories of a love, cooled, but not extinguished, in tears--if we remember, too, that Hardy reproached himself with the seduction of a beloved object, whom her departure from her duties might (according to the Catholic faith) doom to everlasting flames--we shall not wonder at the terrible effect of this phantasmagoria, conjured up in silence and solitude, in the evening dusk, by this fearful priest.
The effect on Hardy was indeed striking, and the more dangerous, that the Jesuit, with diabolical craft, seemed only to be carrying out, from another point of view, the ideas of Gabriel.Had not the young priest convinced Hardy that nothing is sweeter, than to ask of heaven forgiveness for those who have sinned, or whom we have led astray? But forgiveness implies punishment; and it was to the punishment alone that Rodin drew the attention of his victim, by painting it in these terrible hues.With hands clasped together, and eye fixed and dilated, Hardy trembled in all his limbs, and seemed still listening to Rodin, though the latter had ceased to speak.Mechanically, he repeated: "My curse, my curse be upon thee?"
Then suddenly he exclaimed, in a kind of frenzy: "The curse is on me also! The woman, whom I taught to forget her sacred duties, and to commit mortal sin--one day plunged in the everlasting flames--her arms writhing in agony--weeping tears of blood--will cry to me from the bottomless pit: `My curse, my curse be upon thee!'--One day," he added, with redoubled terror, "one day?--who knows? perhaps at this moment!--for if the sea voyage had been fatal to her--if a shipwreck--oh, God! she too would have died in mortal sin--lost, lost, forever!--Oh, have mercy on her, my God! Crush me in Thy wrath--but have mercy on her--for I alone am guilty!"
And the unfortunate man, almost delirious, sank with clasped hands upon the ground.
"Sir," cried Rodin, in an affectionate voice, as he hastened to lift him up, "my dear sir--my dear friend--be calm! Comfort yourself.I cannot bear to see you despond.Alas! my intention was quite the contrary to that."
"The curse! the curse! yes, she will curse me also--she, that I loved so much--in the everlasting flames!" murmured Hardy, shuddering, and apparently insensible to the other's words.
"But, my dear sir, listen to me, I entreat you," resumed the latter; "let me finish my story, and then you will find it as consoling as it now seems terrible.For heaven's sake, remember the adorable words of our angelic Abbe Gabriel, with regard to the sweetness of prayer."
At the name of Gabriel, Hardy recovered himself a little, and exclaimed, in a heart-rending tone: "Ay! his words were sweet and beneficent.Where are they now? For mercy's sake, repeat to me those consoling words."
"Our angelic Abbe Gabriel," resumed Rodin, "spoke to you of the sweetness of prayer--"
"Oh, yes! prayer!"
"Well, my dear sir, listen to me, and you shall see how prayer saved Rancey, and made a saint of him.Yes, these frightful torments, that I have just described, these threatening visions, were all conquered by prayer, and changed into celestial delights."
"I beg of you," said Hardy, in a faint voice, "speak to me of Gabriel, speak to me of heaven--but no more flames--no more hell--where sinful women weep tears of blood--"
"No, no," replied Rodin; and even as, in describing hell, his tone had been harsh and threatening, it now became warm and tender, as he uttered the following words: "No; we will have no more images of despair--for, as I have told you, after suffering infernal tortures, Rancey, thanks to the power of prayer, enjoyed the delights of paradise."
"The delights of paradise?" repeated Hardy, listening with anxious attention.
"One day, at the height of his grief, a priest, a good priest--another Abbe Gabriel--came to Rancey.Oh, happiness! oh, providential change!
In a few days, he taught the sufferer the sacred mysteries of prayer--
that pious intercession of the creature, addressed to the Creator, in favor of a soul exposed to the wrath of heaven.Then Rancey seemed transformed.His grief was at once appeased.He prayed; and the more he prayed, the greater was his hope.He felt that God listened to his prayer.Instead of trying to forget his beloved, he now thought of her constantly, and prayed for her salvation.Happy in his obscure cell, alone with that adored remembrance, he passed days and nights in praying for her--plunged in an ineffable, burning, I had almost said amorous ecstasy."