A FIRST-CLASS passenger who had just dined at the station and drunk a little too much lay down on the velvet-covered seat, stretched himself out luxuriously, and sank into a doze.After a nap of no more than five minutes, he looked with oily eyes at his _vis-a-vis,_ gave a smirk, and said:
"My father of blessed memory used to like to have his heels tickled by peasant women after dinner.I am just like him, with this difference, that after dinner I always like my tongue and my brains gently stimulated.Sinful man as I am, I like empty talk on a full stomach.Will you allow me to have a chat with you?""I shall be delighted," answered the _vis-a-vis._"After a good dinner the most trifling subject is sufficient to arouse devilishly great thoughts in my brain.For instance, we saw just now near the refreshment bar two young men, and you heard one congratulate the other on being celebrated.'Icongratulate you,' he said; 'you are already a celebrity and are beginning to win fame.' Evidently actors or journalists of microscopic dimensions.But they are not the point.The question that is occupying my mind at the moment, sir, is exactly what is to be understood by the word _fame_ or _charity_.What do you think? Pushkin called fame a bright patch on a ragged garment; we all understand it as Pushkin does -- that is, more or less subjectively -- but no one has yet given a clear, logical definition of the word....I would give a good deal for such a definition!""Why do you feel such a need for it?"
"You see, if we knew what fame is, the means of attaining it might also perhaps be known to us," said the first-class passenger, after a moment's thought.I must tell you, sir, that when I was younger I strove after celebrity with every fiber of my being.To be popular was my craze, so to speak.For the sake of it I studied, worked, sat up at night, neglected my meals.And Ifancy, as far as I can judge without partiality, I had all the natural gifts for attaining it.To begin with, I am an engineer by profession.In the course of my life I have built in Russia some two dozen magnificent bridges, I have laid aqueducts for three towns; I have worked in Russia, in England, in Belgium...
.Secondly, I am the author of several special treatises in my own line.And thirdly, my dear sir, I have from a boy had a weakness for chemistry.Studying that science in my leisure hours, I discovered methods of obtaining certain organic acids, so that you will find my name in all the foreign manuals of chemistry.I have always been in the service, I have risen to the grade of actual civil councilor, and I have an unblemished record.I will not fatigue your attention by enumerating my works and my merits, I will only say that I have done far more than some celebrities.And yet here I am in my old age, I am getting ready for my coffin, so to say, and I am as celebrated as that black dog yonder running on the embankment.""How can you tell? Perhaps you are celebrated.""H'm! Well, we will test it at once.Tell me, have you ever heard the name Krikunov?"The _vis-a-vis_ raised his eyes to the ceiling, thought a minute, and laughed.
"No, I haven't heard it,..." he said.
"That is my surname.You, a man of education, getting on in years, have never heard of me -- a convincing proof! It is evident that in my efforts to gain fame I have not done the right thing at all: I did not know the right way to set to work, and, trying to catch fame by the tail, got on the wrong side of her.""What is the right way to set to work?"
"Well, the devil only knows! Talent, you say? Genius?
Originality? Not a bit of it, sir!...People have lived and made a career side by side with me who were worthless, trivial, and even contemptible compared with me.They did not do one-tenth of the work I did, did not put themselves out, were not distinguished for their talents, and did not make an effort to be celebrated, but just look at them! Their names are continually in the newspapers and on men's lips! If you are not tired of listening I will illustrate it by an example.Some years ago Ibuilt a bridge in the town of K.I must tell you that the dullness of that scurvy little town was terrible.If it had not been for women and cards I believe I should have gone out of my mind.Well, it's an old story: I was so bored that I got into an affair with a singer.Everyone was enthusiastic about her, the devil only knows why; to my thinking she was -- what shall I say?
-- an ordinary, commonplace creature, like lots of others.The hussy was empty-headed, ill-tempered, greedy, and what's more, she was a fool.
